What energy and experiences can we expect in January 2019? The energy this month is difficult to describe. The overall feeling includes a suffocating silence. There is a feeling of being underwater where you cannot hear or see anything clearly. It is a peaceful, muffled feeling of disappearing or receding into the distance. Another way to describe the energy of this month is the feeling from opiate or narcotic drugs in which things seem foggy or cloudy, and you feel very still inside. Despite this drugged feeling, the energetic potential for the month is that much will happen.
There is a feeling that much will occur amidst the underlying feeling of suffocation or disappearing. There is also a sense of vulnerability in the month. Imagine a newborn baby mouse – blind and tender, yet surrounded by activity. It will be very important that you take good care of yourself and you take very good care of others in this foggy, vulnerable time. Another metaphor for the month is that of being stuck in concrete. There is a sense that you cannot really get where you want to go or do what you want to do. It is not like being stuck in a trap; it is not like being blocked by a wall or an obstacle. It is that you cannot really drag yourself out of your own passivity.
There will be many opportunities for you to judge yourselves and others harshly. Many of you will find yourselves thinking things like, “What is wrong with me? Why can I not be more productive? Why am I so lazy?” You will find an ongoing mental chatter around how hard it is to get things done or to move toward your goals. It will be important to remind yourself that many of the struggles you face this month come from something greater than you. The sluggish and confusing energy you are facing is not your fault -- even if you generally have patterns of laziness or procrastination.
At least for this month, you will be overwhelmed by this overarching energy and you can step aside and stop blaming yourself. It is as if the cosmos is putting you all under anesthesia for a month. It is as if the universe is conspiring to give you a rest. You will see much happening. You will see people making decisions, mistakes being made, and plot points unfolding throughout the month. Many of you will feel ineffective as you strive to participate in these activities. For this month, watch and learn to accept a limited participation. Be sure to forgive yourself along the way for not being able to do all that you can do. This is a time for rest, for forgiveness, and to give yourself a break from your ongoing struggles. -